Aimless

I haven't done this in a while. I've started, and stopped, and started again, and haven't reached a decision in a long time. Always striving to create something meaningful, with a good sense of purpose, or even truly epic, I keep falling back into the same self-feeding of cycle of doubt, laziness and sheer idiocy.

I am aimless. I wish I could cure this. Oh, I know there's an easy fix for it, but right now I could use some brainwashing or painful compulsion. Then again, maybe not? I don't know.

Back from the UK, and a lot of stuff isn't going too well right now. Looks like a lot of plans for the year have fallen through. Lets see where last-minute shifts land me.

ANd again, I truly wish I was skilled at one thing. Any one thing.

Its 3:35 AM and I need sleep, but it seems as though my body's already prepping for the possible insomnia the corticosteroids I have to start in a few hours are gonna give me. Way to plan ahead eh? First time for everything in life...

I truly miss sanity...

*Exeunt*